|I missed my number one fan: Penny Geiszler|
Some of you may know that my number one fan, my mother, passed away in December. I knew that her loss would be hard for a number of reasons. One of those reasons keep returning again and again, and it deals with this blog.
Last May, I went on an amazing trip to Ohio. If you missed those posts, click this label (Research Trip) to see how things went. My mother LOVED hearing about my research trip and how much information I acquired. She's the reason I got into family history and I have continued her research. Time and desire have made processing the mountain of new information a challenge. Let's just say I have barely started scratching the surface. Yet I wanted to get to it, so she could read it.
My mother enjoyed my photographing heritage artifact series a lot. So much, that when she visited me last August, she brought with her a ton of jewelry and such for me to photograph. I'm still struggling to take nice photos of bracelets, but I'll manage someday. Little did I know that these would become my inheritance.
Mom also enjoyed the heritage scrapbook series. She received the book about her for Christmas one year with a streaming trail of gratitude tears when she opened it. Since then, she shared that book with anyone and everyone. Creating that book without a guide on how to do it, inspired me to write a book Create a Family History Scrapbook Digitally in 12 Simple Steps. The book has sold a number of copies. I hope it has benefited those who struggle to piece together a heritage scrapbook that would meet some genealogy standards by sharing the wonderful stories of our ancestors in a beautiful format. Had I not created the original scrapbook for her, I would never have a treasure for my family nor a book that I can say I published.
In November, I began writing about the research I had acquired in May. I started sharing these posts in December staring with Agnes Anderson. Agnes was my mother's biological grandmother who died after her mother Louise was born. I read these posts to mom when she was in ICU. I knew she wasn't going to live but it didn't hit me how much it would hurt.
The sadness comes from this month's series of posts.I had written and post dated a series about my mother's father Lewis Brown. They started appearing in January and then it hit me. Mom wouldn't be reading these posts. Mom rarely left a common, but she'd always talk about the posts with me when we spoke by phone. Or she's tell me about it on Facebook.
To look at my follower's feed and not see her name, breaks my heart. I've often thought, why do I post these things? Who cares? Without my number one fan reading them, who really cares?
And then, a funny thing happened. In December, the follower number increased from 40 something to 50 something. It seems someone does care. And I keep hearing momma say, "Write. Even if it's just for your children. Please write. Share your talents and your research." And in continuing to write, I've found more followers. And I hear her also saying, "Write a Thank You Note." Well, I this is my thank you note.
To those who find my blog with a 'unique' name, I thank you. My blog's name was chosen as a reminder for myself to be patient as research can be slow in coming. It reminds me, that the two year mountain of information can be patiently sorted through. It now reminds me to be patient as I grieve the loss of my mother who I had hoped to share everything with.
Both of my parents are now deceased and my only brother rarely calls me. So, it's just me, my husband, my children, and you wonderful followers who get the benefit of this information. Thank you for reading, and thank you for commenting when I write a post that inspires you.